My Matryoshka Collection, and that deep relation!

Being half romanian, and eastern european in general, brings me a deep inner relation with several items, locations, and traditions from that area.

A Matryoshka doll, a Babushka doll or a Russian nested doll, also called a stacking doll, is a set of dolls of decreasing sizes placed one inside the other. "Matryoshka" (Матрёшка) is a derivative of the Russian female first name "Matryona", which was a very popular name among peasants in old Russia. The name "Matryona" in turn is related to the Latin root, "mater" and means Mother. So the name is closely connected with motherhood and in turn the doll has come to symbolize fertility. [source Wikipedia]

One of them is my Matryoshka dolls collection that i have started less than a couple of years ago, and which are well known souvenir items in eastern european countries. and though I only started this collection less than 2 years ago, i have all of those already :)



The 1st one in the collection was the blue one, which i got from prague a year and a half ago. which was followed by the one to the right from Accessorize (Made in China of course), and was presented by them as a Christmas decoration apparently, just like the other one from them as well. While the other 2 are heavy original ones :D from Russia, and from the Ukraine, and not only that the one from Ukraine was a gift from my dear half Ukrainian friend and ex-colleague Diana, put its full of passion ever since the manufacturing! That is made obvious by a touch from the lady who made it and painted it, leaving a hair of her with the painting :) another fact that makes this one very special to me :)



Apparently, and Unfortunately, i still don't have any of those dolls from romania (hint hint: They are toooooo expensive in romania, those romanian bastards), but will hopefully add one or two from there this year :)

Its also worth mentioning, that if you read that Wikipedia article, you will find out that this dolls was inspired by a souvenir dolls from Japan in the late 19th century.




UPDATE:
My Matryoshka collection has been updated , with a new romanian collection this time :) a must have , isn't it!

Its the Green one to the left in the photo

toot toot! My blog is tooting like toot!

Since the toot season started , it had even an extension due to high demand :) out of which my blog ... this one you are reading, has been tooted as well, no where else but on toot.

And on those occasion, may i toot up all the tooter from toot which have been tooting for a all those tooted years tootly.

Thank god they found the mo3amaleh and tooted me up :D

BACK :)

Back from vacation to jordan :)

sorry for all the readers who, i guess, have been a bit disappointed by my few updates from out there...

keep pinging, stuff coming on the way :)

n@simjo 3.0

Yup...

As promised, a new version of blogger is finally there running on my blog, with a new RSS Feed as well (please update your RSS if your still using the previous atom.xml one), and all the new blogger features.

Also, a notable change in design and blog make over was done (Apparently, no more coral pinkish color :D). I hope the annoyers who didnt like the previous theme would like this one :P

del.icio.us bookmarks are also ON now, and add this will help you bookmark any post on a big variety of web networks, from your account on Google, Yahoo and even Facebook.

Hopefully, more would be coming soon around my blog, like moving my Jordanian Airwaves guide in here. and adding some hotlinks, and labeling old posts.
Its just that i'm not having that much time to do it all, so bare with me. I'm still accepting your suggestions.

Last but not least, this make over got me much more less rating on google. despite all the URLs are the same!!!!! I got really confused from this, and i'm feeling pretty sad about it:(

Love has no privacy, and its powers have no limit

They call it “Privacy”, Oxford's english dictionary defines it as follows:

priv•acy /prvsi; NAmE prav/ noun [U]
1 the state of being alone and not watched or disturbed by other people: She was longing for some peace and privacy. I value my privacy. He read the letter later in the privacy of his own room.
2 the state of being free from the attention of the public: freedom of speech and the right to privacy She complained that the photographs were an invasion of her privacy.

Nowadays' people use tools to gain it, be it by checking that checkbox that they don't want their phone number to be available in the phone directory, be it that the increase their on-line's profiles security to the maximum on MSN, yahoo, facebook , or other moder online people cooking books.... Or whatever other tools the todays' modern people use ...

Excuse me, But .... anyone ever heard about feelings, anyone ever heard about god's welling and force to empower your love powers to get to the you or you or you ...

I know, I know, call me psycho, call me stupid, call me ........ call me sticky smelly cat ... call me whatever you want,,,,,, but I am nothing but , Love-based human being.

I can't do anything in this life unless i love it, I cant eat something unless i love it, I cant sit on a chair unless i love it, i cant talk to a person unless i love him or her, i cant kiss a lady unless i love her (no, its not being in love with her you stupid shallow reader, differ between loving somebody, and being in love with somebody), I cant ride a bus unless i love it, I cant write a line of code unless i love the idea and logic setting behind it, I cant write this post write now unless I'm loving the music playing in the background , the machine I'm writing it on, and the OpenOffice software I'm currently writing this post on..

and when i love something or someone , I do with my soul, heart, mind, hands, lips, feet, and all of senses. I Love, then I exist ... because I'm a human being, and the mission god gave me in this life is to love, I love you god for this mission you gave me, I'm keeping it even though your other creature human being do not seem to love loving!

And here is my story...

Well, just before starting my story with this someone whom i so-called “loved”... at the beginning of this post (23:12 Saturday the 29th of September, 2007) I wanted to listen to David Vendetta's “Bleeding Heart”, I turned the radio ON to Play 99.6, simply because i thought they would be playing it in a short while, and there it was, after a couple of songs and at exactly 23:27, My room's radio is booming “What would my life be ... living in your arms ... we will never knowwww”.... No I dont know Play's play-list, probably there is a machine selecting those hits, right now, but Its just that i love this song, and its NOT the 10th nor the 20th time I love to hear the song and i turn to Play 99.6 and hear it right away, ... see what does love mean!

Back to my story,

She's a SHE, met here ever since the 1st days of Uni back in 2002, never cared about her looks (though she's breath taking beautiful), but i always cared her mind, her soul, her behaviors, thoughts, and passions.

Things progressed, I dunno, might had a crush at a certain time, but what i know is that i fell in love with her at a certain time, and for certain reasons that wasn't to be, I respected her decision, Life went on ... No relation has started, no relation has ended.... My love to her continues, yes that LOVE, the 2002 one .... “Do you still love her?” .. a dumb question ... answer: “if I will one day say that i do not love her, let it be known that i never even did, and all of this was fakeouts, and only then you can call me psycho”...
I mean, love never ends you human beings, who come you dare to tell someone: “I don't love you anymore” ..... Love is progressive, it never ends, its accumulative, it never vanishes, Love is forever, only your fake outs end, finish and get limited ....
Dear David Guetta, your “Love is gone” is a nice song, but even when love is gone, it doesn't mean that it vanished or ended. It is just gone, for a walk maybe!

Yes I do still love her, more and more even, Its been over a year since we have “properly” met, It was always by coincidence in shop or cafe, or a rapid un-planned meetup.

We planned to meet several times actually, but it never happened for several reasons .... but ..... lets see ....

Sometimes in February 2007, we were supposed to meet, it didn't happen, so a change in plans happened, and i went shopping, I was in a mall, at a shop, as i entered the shop (in which we had met before coincidentally) something came to my mind, soul, and heart , saying: .... “you will gonna see her today at 5 PM as set before”!!!!!!!!! after 20 mins of going around that big shop, I look to my left, its her, I look to watch (4:58 PM), I didnt go to her, in a couple of minutes she sees me and says HI.

Oh how much I love you my dear Barry White,....

“Do you still love her?” .. a dumb question.

Call it co-incidence yet again ... ok ... I call it something else!

Anyway, forget about those old fantasies then ....
So we set up a meeting, after I came back from abroad 2 weeks ago, its been over a year now, a lot happened in our lives, enough to talk for 3 nonstop hours maybe. So MSNing .... was this:
Me: “Hmm, I'm pretty jammed after this vacation, time is getting too tight, I guess the week after would be good, how about Saturday the 29th of Sunday the 30th ”.
She: “Ok, Let me checkout with my BF, and ill tell you”
Me: “Ok, No problem, you see what suits you and your boyfriend and tell me, I have no problem with that at all, but I Guess it would be better on Sunday the 30th, wouldn't be”.
She: “I guess so, but until then I'll be checking out and telling you”.
Me: “Deal! Have a nice day .. but don't you forget to tell me :P ” ....

During last week I reminded her on MSN about that, she didnt give me an answer yet. I decided not to annoy her anymore about it, and not even ask... I'll be waiting as she said..

Friday night, I was pretty tired, 1 AM, wanted to go to sleep ... remember the something, yeah the “something” that came to my mind, soul, and heart ... it came again saying: “she is on MSN” ... hell ya ... I just logged off MSN.

I log in, she is ON, (this wasn't the 10th nor the 20th time this happens ... ), I didnt open a session with her, neither she did, after 15 mins the something said “She will go Busy or Away” ... and bingo!!! I got stuffed out, put that handset device away and went to sleep without logging out .... I couldn't sleep, the something returned back saying: “How about a goodnight!” ... it was 2:10 AM, she was still logged, and within 3 mins she logged off!

So, I didnt annoy her, didnt ask her about her meeting ...

Saturday night, I went out to a cafe, (I wanted to suggest that place to my meetup with her by the way, since she likes starbucks, while i dont, and i prefer that place on it). So I went there, it was a family gathering.
So as i got in, the something came back, damn it ,,,, what do you want! The something said : “I just wanna talk to your mind, soul, and heart”, I said: “they're all busy with love” ... the something said: “and they will be happy more if they see what they are loving! Here, tonight!” ....

We ordered, changed 2 tables, and as i wanted to go get my order, I opened the door, and there happened to be a man and a lady looking to the opposite direction for a table, I felt something (I do not look at others my self in case you don't know), but I saw the lady's hair, and sensed something, and after i passed through the door .... Oh my god! Its her!
And yes, there she was, along with her boyfriend :)

“Do you still love her?” .. a dumb question.

Call it co-incidence yet again ... ok ... I call it something else!

They sat on a far away table, I didnt go there to annoy them, and just before leaving, I saw her 5 feet away, looking up to the shop's orders panel, she had that smile, she was blooming, she was in love, I love her when she is like that :) I love to see her like that .. and who doesn't love to see someone he loves being in love!
And no, I made a promise not to annoy her regarding today's evening, and this is how it was, I passed, smiled to her, and she didn't even see me! Just the way i wanted it to be.

She still didnt contact me regarding tonight, and no, “the something” didnt come yet to tell me ,,,, the something doesnt tell me those stuff .... but what i know is, that if we'll happen to go there tonight, I wont annoy the table she had that special time in last night with her boyfriend, my loving limits end there.

It wasn't the 100th time I have feeling about who or what i love, it wasnt the 200th either ..... and i know i will still be feeded by my Loving powers for the rest of my life, like I've always been.

But what i do not know is, when i'll be a victim of those love powers my self, oh dear god, I'm tired of loving everything and everyone, my loving mind, soul, heart and senses are getting tired. They are in need to be loved as well .... I want to be loved .... sometimes I wish .... I better not wish that ..... I'm just wondering how is it to be loved .... is it really how some people feel, when you love them and they just ignore it, or is it like feeling to be loved ?! I told you i dunno how is it to be loved! Eh ... can't you get it!

And though I'm now hearing IIO's "is it love" in my earphones ... what I can say is ...

"It´s crazy the spell you have me under
I know it can´t be but i´ll always wonder
What would my life be, living in your arms?
We will never know"

an "Untitled" night!

Last night, 23:59
laying on my bed .... thinking! extensively!
in my ears: Mood FM, with Late night lounge,

Last Night, 00:01
laying on my bed .... thinking! extensively!
in my ears: Mood FM, Dido - "Thank you"
me wondering: "Who do i want to say [thank you] to..... I guess i'd better say [good night!]"

This Morning, 06:59
setting on the edge of my bed .... thinking! extensively!
in my ears: Mood FM, Moby - "Porcelain"
me singing with the song: "In my dreams I'm dying all the time ... As I wake its kaleidoscopic mind ... I never meant to hurt you .. but this is good bye...".
& They cut off the song and put the jingle of their morning drive time period, & changed the song.

Hey Man Look@me Rockin' On the RADIOOOOO!

Yeah, I was on LC (Listeners Choice) with Dj Safana Bustami (SAFANA THE BANDANA;) on Radio Jordan 96.3 FM last Friday from 11 – 2 PM.

it's actually my 4th time on the airwaves of a radio station (the whole 4 times were on Jordan FM of course) & the 3rd time on the Funkiest show on the Jordanian airwaves, LC ;) the other time being on the Friday Special.... well, when there was a Friday special on Jordan FM !

It was BaNaNas as Safana says;) I really enjoyed my time in there to the max ... Safana is a wonderful entertainer, freak music lover “yeah like me, a lil' bit more even ;)”, a dedicated hard worker, at the service of each & every listener & tough enough to make her show resist among the jammed jordanian airwaves with all those stations ... keeping her position at the top of the rating. Not forgetting Mudar Momani as a prof Mix Master, & a very highly tech-cultured technician.

LC is just a perfect show... Let's not forget that it is the one & only show on Jordan FM that resisted the “Black Spell” upon Jordan FM last Fall-Winter 2004/2005 ... for all those years of school, adolescence, Tawjihi, & Now Campus... LC was always a show to be tuned in whatever the situation was, during the exams, during the holiday, during meditation, in the Car, in the bedroom, in the kitchen, over Ajlun mountains, on Aqaba seashores, on the Ammani boulevards, on the Desert highway, thru the internet, on the West-European short wave even being in Eastern europe! simply ... it was the Original Sound Track of My Life, along with 10s & maybe 100s of thousands of Jordanians & non jordanians living in or outside jordan.

& Dj Safana is just the perfect entertainer for such a show that was part of all our lives, emailers, callers, or just silent listeners .

to be honest with you, if Dj Safana wasn't on the airwaves at the moment, I think I would have quited listening to Jordan FM at a certain moment of Time,,,, Maybe quited being interested in radio in general... or maybe I was one of those Idiot Junkies sending Stupid SMS to those ****** Musical Arabic TV Stations.

what do I have to say now,,,,,?
3 phrases.....

LC is (a Culture) people, it's not a simple dedications show, it's about how to express your self in music & get to know others thru their music.

Safana the BaNdan@ ,, thanx for everything,, U've got the touch ,, we love you cool dudate :*

I really missed Studio Nr 1 since My last visit in 2002, more particularly 29 Sep 2002 (it was the day I got registered in Uni) ,, & sth deep inside in me really needed to get this visit I did last Friday.

Cool is the Rule....
Keep Rockin' .......